A few hours ago, I was in dining hall. I saw people smile, people enjoying, I saw the bad food. I saw people who are happy. I realized something, something similar. Everyone around me has self inside and self outside.
First self: Machine Self:
It wants to win. It wants to achieve. It wants to work hard. It wants be the best. It wants to achieve the goals it has set. It cannot handle the words which mean defeat, loss. It completes every assignment on time and completely. It is deprived of Kama, krodha, lobha, moha, mada. This is driven by brain (matsarya) and not by body. Upon loosing, which it cannot understand, it will feel depressed, sad and morose. As it is something which it did not expect.
Second self: Human Self
It has all the qualities of Kama, krodha, lobha, moha, mada. It is driven by body and not the brain. It wants to enjoy and stay satisfied as per body.
When you perform an action or a task at hand, either one of the self's will dominate the situation. Involuntarily/ voluntarily we get dominated by one of them and this defines our character.
When you lie down lazily you are following the second self, when you are working hard you are dominated by first self. And sometimes, these selfs deceive each other for the obvious reasons, they oppose each other, and unfortunately they are housed in the same mind.
Generally, the domination of the self depends on which one, our heart likes. But the problem starts when the selfs deceive each other. The heart would not understand which part of the brain to believe, as the heart likes both brain and the body.
It is up to us ,to decide, using the mind, which self should dominate .
It is up to us ,to decide, using the mind, which self should dominate .
What we should learn is to balance between the matsarya and the Kama, krodha, lobha, moha, mada in the mind.
